I saw a dr. well, an NP. But I've seen her before and I trusted her. She got me all my prescriptions that I brought up. what I didn't bring up was anxiety. Because I felt what I was typically feeling was not really anxiety. But the more I research it, the more I really think it is a form of anxiety. So I need to get that checked out. I still haven't been able to go get botox. Out new insurance starts today 8/1, so hopefully, soon I can get in with a dr who will put me through the referral process with the dr I've already seen for botox once. So if I could get the migraines and anxiety under control I would be doing pretty good.
I'm still not where I want to be in my business and that gives me so much stress and anxiety that I barely even want to walk into the room. I don't want to look at the stuff I could be doing. Because I'm so stressed about doing it wrong. SO most of the time I just ignore it; I'll sit in my chair and crochet because I can't mess that up too bad.
Most days being a housewife is hard. And most days it probably is ALL IN MY HEAD.
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Wednesday, August 1, 2018
Monday, December 25, 2017
Update
Hey y'all. Sorry I kinda went MIA. It's been a rough few months. I've been having some pretty severe migraines recently. But I think I'm finally back on track so I want to give a little update.
In October my FMLA got approved. A combination of things happened then. My migraines seemed to take a significant turn for the worst, my depression quickly followed suit, and I was left hanging in the crossfire. With the FMLA came the realization that I no longer had to push myself to work through the pain I was feeling. Which, I still strongly believe that no one should have to do. But, as I've explained before, being laid up in bed with a migraine makes my depression worse, and it's an endless cycle. So there have been days where maybe I could have pushed myself to work through the pain, but I didn't feel the need to, because I have FMLA days to cover me.
In combination with some other life things that are going on, my depression has been up and down. After all these years it's still weird to me how it can seemingly fluctuate drastically from day to day. But as of a couple weeks ago I have added some wellbutrin back in with pristiq and it seems to be helping.
Now for the big update!!! After talking with my PCP for the better part of a year about doing botox for migraines, she finally agreed to refer me out. It took a LLLLOOONNNGG time for the neuro referral to go through because apparently the neuro that typically works with my insurance had recently quit, so they were kinda in limbo. I was finally able to see a neurologist towards the end of November. After going through my history and doing an exam, he agreed that we should definitely give botox another try. They scheduled me for December 20 and sent off the pre-authorization to the insurance. I didn't hear back from them so I started to get worried. I made some phone calls, and left some messages (which is a big deal for me because I have major phone anxiety). They called me back on the 19th and said it was approved!! So I went 5 days ago to have my first round of botox injections. It hurt just as bad as I remember. But I'm willing to do anything to have more than 5 pain free days per month. Driving home afterwards I started to get a migraine. But I just figured it was a combination of stress and weather (it's finally turning winter in Oklahoma). The rest of the day was ok. The dr had told me it could take 4 days for the botox to take full effect. I knew it hadn't really set in yet because I could still move my eyebrows and wrinkle my forehead. I had started to get the cold that my dad had been battling for about a week, so before bed I took a couple nyquil capsules. I woke up in the early morning hours with a searing, stabbing pain through my left eye. I've experienced this a couple times before so I wasn't overly concerned with it. It wasn't gone by the time my alarm went off, so I called in to work, took some excedrin and benadryl and finally fell back asleep. When I woke up the pain was at a more manageable level. I googled botox side effects and quickly learned that headaches are unfortunately one of the side effects. I generally don't experience a lot of side effects from meds, and I didn't remember this from the last time I had botox, but it's been a while. And I figured I wouldn't take any more nyquil just in case. The next few days were hit or miss. Some migraines, and some pain free/less pain times. Once again, the weather is changing, I'm stressed, and sick, so these could all be factors.
Today is Christmas!! Sleep was hit or miss. Between feeling sick and coughing, and my normal insomnia, I probably got about 6 hrs of sleep. We were up early to see if Santa came, and I've been on the go ever since. It's actually 12:13 am, December 26 right now, and it's been over 24 hours since I have had any migraine pain!! I can tell the botox has taken full effect because I can barely lift my eyebrows up, and my rbf is gone for the most part. :)
I will try my best to update again in a few days on how I'm doing. But I'm so so excited and optimistic for this!
In October my FMLA got approved. A combination of things happened then. My migraines seemed to take a significant turn for the worst, my depression quickly followed suit, and I was left hanging in the crossfire. With the FMLA came the realization that I no longer had to push myself to work through the pain I was feeling. Which, I still strongly believe that no one should have to do. But, as I've explained before, being laid up in bed with a migraine makes my depression worse, and it's an endless cycle. So there have been days where maybe I could have pushed myself to work through the pain, but I didn't feel the need to, because I have FMLA days to cover me.
In combination with some other life things that are going on, my depression has been up and down. After all these years it's still weird to me how it can seemingly fluctuate drastically from day to day. But as of a couple weeks ago I have added some wellbutrin back in with pristiq and it seems to be helping.
Now for the big update!!! After talking with my PCP for the better part of a year about doing botox for migraines, she finally agreed to refer me out. It took a LLLLOOONNNGG time for the neuro referral to go through because apparently the neuro that typically works with my insurance had recently quit, so they were kinda in limbo. I was finally able to see a neurologist towards the end of November. After going through my history and doing an exam, he agreed that we should definitely give botox another try. They scheduled me for December 20 and sent off the pre-authorization to the insurance. I didn't hear back from them so I started to get worried. I made some phone calls, and left some messages (which is a big deal for me because I have major phone anxiety). They called me back on the 19th and said it was approved!! So I went 5 days ago to have my first round of botox injections. It hurt just as bad as I remember. But I'm willing to do anything to have more than 5 pain free days per month. Driving home afterwards I started to get a migraine. But I just figured it was a combination of stress and weather (it's finally turning winter in Oklahoma). The rest of the day was ok. The dr had told me it could take 4 days for the botox to take full effect. I knew it hadn't really set in yet because I could still move my eyebrows and wrinkle my forehead. I had started to get the cold that my dad had been battling for about a week, so before bed I took a couple nyquil capsules. I woke up in the early morning hours with a searing, stabbing pain through my left eye. I've experienced this a couple times before so I wasn't overly concerned with it. It wasn't gone by the time my alarm went off, so I called in to work, took some excedrin and benadryl and finally fell back asleep. When I woke up the pain was at a more manageable level. I googled botox side effects and quickly learned that headaches are unfortunately one of the side effects. I generally don't experience a lot of side effects from meds, and I didn't remember this from the last time I had botox, but it's been a while. And I figured I wouldn't take any more nyquil just in case. The next few days were hit or miss. Some migraines, and some pain free/less pain times. Once again, the weather is changing, I'm stressed, and sick, so these could all be factors.
Today is Christmas!! Sleep was hit or miss. Between feeling sick and coughing, and my normal insomnia, I probably got about 6 hrs of sleep. We were up early to see if Santa came, and I've been on the go ever since. It's actually 12:13 am, December 26 right now, and it's been over 24 hours since I have had any migraine pain!! I can tell the botox has taken full effect because I can barely lift my eyebrows up, and my rbf is gone for the most part. :)
I will try my best to update again in a few days on how I'm doing. But I'm so so excited and optimistic for this!
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Migraine
Now that we're caught up with how we got here, I figured I'd talk about my migraines.
I first started getting migraines around 2005. I really didn't know anything about migraines. But I had never been in this kind of pain. I had a really stressful job at the time, and I was dealing with some anxiety as well. I finally got insurance through my job, so I went to the dr. He diagnosed it as migraines. From there, I got either an MRI or CAT scan, I don't remember which one. The scans came back clear, so he started me on some "preventive medicine" and gave me a prescription for a rescue medicine. I also started tracking my migraines. At this point I was in pain all the time. That was driving my anxiety up.
Between 2005 and now I've taken so many different preventive medicines that I don't even remember what all they were. This is also when I found out that I can't tolerate imitrex (which is one of the biggest rescue meds.)
I've tried going to the chiropractor. I've done acupuncture. I've had my eyes checked so many times.
I can remember one day I had an extra bad migraine. I stapled a blanket in front of the bedroom window and threw a clock off the wall.
I've lost jobs because I called in sick too much. But there were days when I couldn't even fathom trying to drive to work.
Finally in 2013 I was able to try botox. It hurts so bad. But it worked so good for me. It was a total game changer for me. I had 2 sessions, and then I lost my job and insurance.
Currently nothing is really helping. I am in some kind of pain every single day. It's so frustrating to live in pain and have no idea how to fix it.
I'm scheduled on 12/20 for my first round of botox with a new dr. I hope it works as well as it did before because I really need some relief from this.
I first started getting migraines around 2005. I really didn't know anything about migraines. But I had never been in this kind of pain. I had a really stressful job at the time, and I was dealing with some anxiety as well. I finally got insurance through my job, so I went to the dr. He diagnosed it as migraines. From there, I got either an MRI or CAT scan, I don't remember which one. The scans came back clear, so he started me on some "preventive medicine" and gave me a prescription for a rescue medicine. I also started tracking my migraines. At this point I was in pain all the time. That was driving my anxiety up.
Between 2005 and now I've taken so many different preventive medicines that I don't even remember what all they were. This is also when I found out that I can't tolerate imitrex (which is one of the biggest rescue meds.)
I've tried going to the chiropractor. I've done acupuncture. I've had my eyes checked so many times.
I can remember one day I had an extra bad migraine. I stapled a blanket in front of the bedroom window and threw a clock off the wall.
I've lost jobs because I called in sick too much. But there were days when I couldn't even fathom trying to drive to work.
Finally in 2013 I was able to try botox. It hurts so bad. But it worked so good for me. It was a total game changer for me. I had 2 sessions, and then I lost my job and insurance.
Currently nothing is really helping. I am in some kind of pain every single day. It's so frustrating to live in pain and have no idea how to fix it.
I'm scheduled on 12/20 for my first round of botox with a new dr. I hope it works as well as it did before because I really need some relief from this.
Thanks for reading!
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